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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 00:34

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I think the readers, may guess!

I write beautiful poetry .

My life is so biszare .

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Ive learnt so much.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

How does growing up in chaos affect a child as they become an adult?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

What is a good comeback for when someone calls you flat?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was seconnd youngest,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Put me off passion for life!!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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This is soul school!.

She wouldn,t have been !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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Would this be the day?

But, we were locked up after school.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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I have no regrets .

So, i spoilt her more .

Comes on , in middle age.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

When she asked me how she looked .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She married twice! .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She was in good health!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I don,t even have a pension.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

It was going to be , some day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My family never makes their pension either.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Who then, do I blame.?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

All the time i was locked up.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One cannot live in the past .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Especially a lifetime of it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

What did i know ?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But it wasn’t much.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was scared of men, in general

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She found it foreign!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We were not on the streets..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I waited trembling.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I was 9 years of age.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She loved him until the end.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He knew the spot.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So whats the point in blame.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I will be 64.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im still living with it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was very sick at this time too.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We all went to grammer schools

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And i lived it daily.